“the world doesn’t care what eyes you want to see it”



I went back to school. a post-college degree. I haven’t talked about it because it felt like all the people that needed to know, already knew about it.

Like Turow, it amazed me how easy it was for me to assume that I was “somewhat less intelligent than anyone around me.” Never had I felt being stupid to this degree that I am questioning my scholastic performance since high school.

There is hardly any time to sleep, even to draw is a sinful escape from studying. Escapism aside, there seems to be not enough time to read and study all the cases, annotations, legal arguments, and stuff that seems to pop out of nowhere. I’m also relearning English but in a seemingly different language that has its own syntax and vocabulary and punctuated with serious-sounding Latin and maxims. Failure is starting to seem brutally normal but unacceptable; being broke is a constant state that I can’t seem to get out of. And yet, I still think I’ll do all right :’]


Okay, so I’m relearning photoshop. Tagal na din. Been rusting for years now with my pentab that hadn’t seen the light of day. Hayts.



I was trying again for some speed painting, but I can’t seem to get it right. Hopefully I could get at it during this holiday. The layers are killing me, as usual = . =Capture


Dati ko nang nasabi na di si Rizal o Bonifacio ang kailangan natin…mas nangangailangan tayo ng isang Mabini.
Kailangan natin ng mga tao’ng nasa posisyon na may alam, dahil sila ang may kakayahang magsalita at ipaglaban ang dapat ipaglaban hanggang sa kaya nila. ‘Yung tipong kahit may sakit na ‘yung tao at di na kayang maglakad ay magtratrabaho pa rin. ‘Yung tipong kahit ang dami ng duming itinatapon sa kanya (syphilis daw lol), ay siya pa ‘tong hihingi ng tawad dahil sa pagiging ‘maculit’ niya sa mga isyung ipinaglalaban niya. Ultimo karwahe ng punerarya ay rerentahan makadalo lang sa mga official events (hardcore ni mabini XD).
Ngunit mali pala ako.
Sa panahon ngayon, mas lalo lang pala siyang lulumpuhin kung nagkataon.
Kahapon, nakakuha ako ng commemorative five peso coin ni Mabini. Wala lang, matagal ko na kasing gusto makakuha n’on. And ano lang, napa-isip lang bigla. Sorry kung #random


“Do you know why the unknown is more attracted to mortals than angels? Its because of our imperfection. Our imperfection to destroy. Someway, in a fuck up way, we are the only being who share the unknown’s very nature to destroy which we could mimic more successfully than our myriad attempts at creations.”

-random unearth note between a forgotten mold-smelling book


I’ve once seen a hierarchy on beings on a very-Christian looking drawing. It depicted God as center stage and below him were the angels, then demons, and at the bottom were the mortal man (archaically speaking).

It kinda weirded me out to know we are below demons, the personification of evil and whatnot. But it didn’t surprised me after thinking it over, afterall demons (the Bible version anyway) believes in God’s existence more than humans do.



I’m a day person.

New things are happening so fast. New job. New shift. I stopped studying, started scribbling and just waste away. Mechanical, I confess. Days are nothing but filling up the blanks and sleeping. Probably trying to keep up with ruined biorhythm. They wanted something cheaper than a computer, and so they settled with humans.

Less cost and maintenance, after all, we tend to fix ourselves when we broke.